" THAT CRAZY GEEK GIRL WHO IS THE KINDRED SPIRIT THAT I LURVE SO MUCH...IN SLOW MO~ "
- twistedlupin, on authoressarktos

As the above quote suggests, I am a crazed, fandom-obsessed fangirl with extremely awesome friends. To begin...I'm not special. I'm not unique. I'm actually pretty darned boring, and I like it that way. If you're still up for reading this after realizing that, then go right ahead. ;D I'm conservative by nature, interested in religion (specifically Christianity), spirituality, philosophy, etc...except that's really only part of my personality. It's probably the one you'll notice first though. XD

( Cut for craziness! )

FRIENDING POLICY!
I'm up for being friended anytime! However, expect raised eyebrows if you don't comment/PM why, especially if it seems like we don't have anything in common at all.

RANDOM COMMENTS!
If you feel like dropping me a line, just comment to this post :P

JUST A NOTE
My journal doesn't usually go over a G-PGish rating (I'm not a fan of bad language), but I would advise any really young kids not to poke around much further.

I recently decided to review almost every single thing I read...which means I leave a lot of constructive criticism. I guess I finally made someone mad, and they blocked me. Which is a shame, because I was actually going to leave a more positive review for the better sequel. Irony. ^^'

At least a lot of the people I do review actually e-mail back and straighten me out when I'm wrong, or ask for advice. There's one writer who, despite my admittedly scathing review, actually said she wanted me to continue to do so she can improve. Which is great, because she has potential. I don't think I'd be that gracious, even if I do love constructive criticism.

But yeah, kinda bummed. Because I really didn't mean anything by it, I was just trying to help. D: I only review the stories that look good, and there's a surprising amount of those. Problem is, most people are unaware of even the basic writing mechanics...which doesn't surprise me much after suffering through school. I only learned because I studied hard, and I still have a lot left to go before I can consider myself anything more than an amateur.

So that's my rant. As you can tell, my carpal tunnel is nearly gone! Yay!

I'm better now, and a lot happier. I wish I could say more, but I've been incredibly busy these last few days. Just thought I'd check in.

A few perscripted anti-depressant pills and and incredibly less painful amount of carpal tunnel later, and I think I'm starting to do okay. Still not sleeping well, but eh, I'll deal with that later.

Saw the Star Trek movie yesterday. Was worth missing dinner for. Tempted to look up the fandom, but I know I'd probably regret it if I did. Longest-running scifi television series after Doctor Who, and God knows I didn't even manage to get halfway through that within the span of a year before I gave up.

So yeah. I'm doing okay now, I guess. Better than I was by far.

I'm just...really stressed out right now. I'll see you all later once I get a handle on things.

So, I'm not graduating. Did I fail a course? No, at least not to my knowledge. Did I not do enough credits? Nope, I did two extra actually. Arktos, are you going to cut to the chase and tell us already WHY you can't pass? Gladly! Y'see, for those of you who haven't been on my friends-list for long, I did this co-op roughly...two years ago. This co-op was HELL, and not because of the (awesome) workplace in the least. No, it was because I had the most damn spiteful guidance teacher I've ever met in my life, who not only enjoyed toying with me and reducing me to tears (no, seriously, she did) but royally messing everything up until the very last minute...in which case she let the school fuck with my records instead. To give some perspective on this, my extremely polite and professional late forties-something boss called her, and I quote, a 'grade-A bitch'.

Now, this school sucks to begin with. It's not even my actual school, just another one I have to work through because my main one is 'special' so to speak. This incompent school almost gave me a diploma in French (which I barely passed and had dropped by my second year) and nearly graduated me as another girl with the same first name living out in Quebec. This continued until well after graduation, when I got frantic calls to come pick up my gown and join the ceremony. In fact, it took a full year to resolve, and I made damn sure it was resolved I can tell you that.

But that isn't good enough. Oh no, not at all. Pshaw, why let some stupid bookworm like me graduate with an 83%? Much better to try 68%! Oh wait, even better, how about 44%! I wish I could say I was joking, but no, I had a perfectly good mark gradually drop down into a failure over the course of the year without being notified. A failure that's going to drastically alter my mid to early 80s average. And now they're determined to use their own fucked-up record keeping against me, if you'll pardon my (apparently fluent?) French. And it's all thanks to my wonderful guidance teacher, who couldn't and still can't be arsed to do anything but screw me over.

So yeah. I'm damned, and there's no way I'm fixing this before next fall, if I manage it by then. As it is, I'm going to have to go pretty high up the hierachy to fix this cock-up. Thank God I hadn't planned on post-secondary for quite a while, because I wouldn't have been able to do that and my family might have taken a huge financial hit from the lost money invested into it. How these people ever passed high school themselves is the question I'd like an answer to, but barring that I'd like to have my life go right for once. Is it any wonder I'm in the worst physical and mental shape of my life with this crap going on all the time? I think not.

I've been having what I assume is the same person friending me and my roleplay journals over and over again using different (but similarly Russian-named and filled with spam) accounts. How do I stop this? Any suggestions? Because it's really getting old.

Am I the only person in fandom who seriously doesn't give a penny about shipping? I mean, come on, get to the plot already!

1:00 to 4:00 AM
Lie in bed staring at ceiling.

4:00 to 7:00 AM
Actually sleep.

7:00 to 8:40 AM
Get up, get dressed, study a bit more and then go off to exams.

Anywhere between 8:50 to 11:00 (I've finished at 9:50 mostly so far)
Do the exam.

Then to 12:00 PM
Walk home, sleep.

12:00 to 1:00 PM
Eat lunch.

1:00 to 4:00 PM
Sleep.

4:00 to 8:30 PM
Check email, study, have dinner and take baths all in that order.

8:30 to 10:30 PM
Study.

10:30 PM to 12:00 AM
See top task.


So yeah, that's been my week so far. Which is why I probably won't be updating much until Saturday.

Oh God, I don't even know where to start with how spectacularly this day failed. I don't even want to, because now I'm past the tough parts and I can go get some sleep/a decent bath/study/watch a movie/generally RELAX after such a ridiculously stressful day.

*pinches bridge of nose and sighs* Well, at least there are only four more exams left to go.

Out of all the people who would offer to buy me cookies, my sister did. With her own money. Since I'm completely broke.

I should add that my sister NEVER buys me anything unless...the apocalypse is nigh or something.

...

8D

Now, just the last-minute cleanup and five more exams. Then I'm completely done. Wish I could sleep for a year right now, but I still have a week left to go before I can crash. My dad makes me feel like enough of a failure for screwing up this year, the hell if I'm going to waste all that effort now.

In other news, since I was so burnt out this morning, I started writing up some new fanfics to ward off my writer's block. Most of them are Silent Hill, but I've got a few for Resident Evil, Fullmetal Alchemist, D.Gray-man, that crazy Reboot fic, among the thousands of plotbunnies that have been building up over the past...what, six months? I should really be getting back to BCOCC and my other unfinished stories, but I know just by looking at them they'll need some major rewrites and streamlining like whoa and I just don't have the energy yet to tackle them.

Also, finally posted at AP again. God, I've been such as ass with tags there...hopefully there's still time to change.

Wish me luck! Didn't get much sleep last night, but I think I've studied enough to at least pass this exam, so it's all good. Got only a few projects to wrap up today as well, so with any luck that will go smoothly.

Also, today or tomorrow is apparently National Donut Day. According to what I read, some places are giving out free donuts so...if you like donuts, look into that. ;D

I break down into tears once during a tough Math exam, just once, and my family never lets me forget it. Lord knows they'll make sure to remind me how much of a failure this term was for years to come.

Speaking of which, as of tomorrow I will probably be dead from missing the most CRUCIAL deadline of the semester. If someone could arrange funeral preparations for me, I'd be very grateful.

...I just managed to sleep half the day away. How did I manage that?

I mean, I'm still cool for homework and everything, but...man. I'm more tired than I thought. XD

Man, but it made me laugh. Made up for my so-so day.

If one more spambot friends me and I'm gonna go on a bloody rampage.

But that's irrelevant, since I promised myself I'd try my best not to grumble anymore. Now...lesse...what could possibly have been interesting about this week?

Umm...

I dunno.

I kinda don't remember a lot of it. But...I've been getting plot bunnies like crazy, so if this weekend doesn't kill me (Right, forgot! No grumbling! Bad Arktos, bad!) then I might has something funny posted up. Maybe. Don't worry, I'll post a bad joke warning for those with weak hearts or something. XD



Oh, and did I ever mention I had Darth Vader as a babysitter once? Good times. Too bad this isn't my cake. He made a mean Angel's Food one, by the way.

So, a belated happy birthday to those on my f-list who are having/recently had them. I wish I could name you all, but I don't have the time right now unfortunately. :(

Anyways, nothing interesting to report. Just life as usual, a hard slog with lots of homework. But I like to think I'm getting through it slowly...

I just found a well-written OC story in the Reboot section on ff.net...of all places. Man, and it was faithful to canon and everything! Darned shame it hasn't been updated since '03...not that I'd be able to read anymore thanks to HOMEWORK afhjgdsf

Also, is it just me or would a massive crossover between Reboot and any old video game work like a charm? I mean, really. It's surprising no one's done it before...I mean, a Digimon crossover? And Yu-Gi-Oh? C'mon, there must be more!